What if the circumstances never change?
The end of 2021 is just hours away and the beginning of 2022 to follow. Some of us have managed to make dreams become a reality while others have managed to simply survive in 2021. I’ve done a little of both to be honest with you. Sure my original journey of the “selves” began 3 years ago but we are only fooling ourselves if we believe that life will only forever be perfect and without hardships.
I strive every day to live on my story. To not let the chaos that can sometimes surround me drag me down but living on our stories as opposed to in our stories doesn’t come easy. I learned slowly that it was going to be a choice for me. I could live letting the denial, the shame and the blame consume me or I could search for moments of gratitude in the hard $hit. I could choose to wake with memories of the past haunting me and allow the hardships presented in front of me to stop me from dreaming of a better life or I could take what was in front of me and accept it for what it was…
Another opportunity to grow.
Maybe the picture perfect life doesn’t sit in front of me like I once believed it did but maybe it was all supposed to happen this way anyways. Angie once sent me the quote that said “One day you will tell your story of how you’ve overcome what you’re going through now and it will become part of someone else’s survival guide”. How right was she? It all felt so wrong, and so hopeless for so long until I made that choice. The choice to choose me and a better life. The choice to stop letting the crap drag me down.
My story is no longer for me, my story is now someone else’s survival guide. It’s also the proof I need to keep going when the days feel difficult.
Let some of my final thoughts for 2021 be the thoughts that provide you with hope and courage you need to make the choice for you going forward.
Don’t wait until tomorrow, start today.
I know you can and you will.
~Love Ash
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