Silent Snow
The first snowfall as my children grew up was always a grand affair, I’d deck them out in their beautiful new snowsuits I had carefully selected, tucked in their matching mittens, kissed their pom pom bobbing heads and said have fun. I would capture their amazement of the first snow fall in that moment, and they would roll around, carefree and blissfully at peace.
I couldn’t wait to decorate the house for Christmas. The first snowfall always meant it wasn’t too far away. The white, perfectly placed Christmas lights hung beautifully on the front of the bungalow we worked hard for. The snow when shoveled would make an adorable walk way, inviting those I love to pop in and the house would be cozy, full of family memories.
Over the years though, I lost these feelings. I lost most feelings to be honest. My daughter would remind me about the first snow picture and drag me out to play and snap the photos. She still did this year.
When life was messy, snow took on the meaning of more work to be done, arenas to run to, alcohol around every corner, gifts to be purchased with money I didn’t have, snow tires to be changed, lights to be hung, a tree to be cut, and countless hours wondering what direction life was taking me in.
I began to resent what I used to love. I now know it wasn’t even about the snow, but about me and my journey.
I sit here tonight, watching the most beautiful snow silently fall to the ground and I’m reminded of those days. The days before life got hard and messy. I want to say I miss those days, but the path I walk now, I was given for a reason. So instead I will say, those were the days I cherished, and how great is it that I have many more to cherish now.
This summer, I saw a lady bug in the grass, and the summer before that I noticed beautiful flowers growing on the side of the road. Sounds a little ridiculous doesn’t it? These moments, they are my reminder that every single day is to be cherished and that there is so much beauty in this world, we just have to be ready to see it.
I still have to do what I listed above and truthfully, I’ve spent the last two years trying to prove to the world that I can do it all alone, and I’ve been successful at that, but the power I’ve found in conquering the world alone, it’s also helped me to see that life has much more to offer us, even when its tough. We just need to be open to it.
Do me a favor, find a moment to cherish the beauty this world has to offer, even when it’s hard. I promise it will be worth it.
She is Found 