Not going to lie, this dream, my dream to write, my dream to help others, to first inspire, then motivate you to be the change you wish to see .. it’s there, I want it. But, it’s scary shit.
The floor pictured, it consumed me. Night after night, it’s where I fell. The tears would roll down my cheeks and I would sit for hours replaying my life. How I got there, why I got there, what I could have done differently. Oh how I wished I had done it all so differently.
When the tears dried up, the anger came. First I’d blame myself, then I’d blame him, then I’d blame the alcohol. Sometimes I even blamed my family and friends. Everyone was to blame.
Today I now know that that blame, it actually serves no purpose. None. If I wanted a change, then I had to be the change. Ghandi says it perfectly, Be the change you wish to see in the world.
I decided to change, I decided to be the change I wished to see. I didn’t picture it as giant as changing the world then, but I did see it as a change I needed to make in me.
That’s where it began. All of it. On that kitchen floor. I hope my shares somehow help you. If you want it, you can do it. Just start.
Love Ashley
She is Found 